Expanding possibilities

For someone who uses their intuition to help others, my background is relatively unusual - a degree in Pure Maths and a career in IT. My relationship with my husband, Steve, was also unusually close, loving and challenging.

Difficult psychology

When Steve and I began to get emotionally involved, Steve told me that his experience of life was challenging, giving me the option of backing out. Since Steve was pro-actively and intelligently addressing his challenges to the best of his considerable ability (a psychologist he had worked with extensively told me ‘not many people come back from where Steve had been’), and because he was a delightful person, I stayed with him and looked round for an ‘adult’ to help. This was a long search.

Growing through challenges

During that time, we learnt a lot. Several teachers commented on how well Steve applied their teachings and a few psychics he happened to meet said that it is rare for anyone to grow so much in one life time. And Steve’s challenges included more and more serious chronic physical health problems and limitations, increasingly reducing the possibilities available to us both.

Chaos realm

The last year of Steve’s life was crazy making. During that time, I noticed that, even though I was still functioning, I was intrinsically broken. My problems were nothing compared to Steve’s however, and, eventually, he gave up the immense struggle to live. Frankly, that was something of a relief. The last months had taken more than I had to give on all levels of my being.

I wanted to heal fully and, if possible, avoid anything of this ilk happening to me or others again. Having become extremely isolated by the demands and craziness of our life, I also wanted to make new friends and make up to my body and the rest of me for all the hard times.

I also needed to leave the home in which I had witnessed so much suffering. I expected to move into another home in 2 weeks. It took 20 months, during which I house sat in a string of isolated places.

Attraction in action

I also learnt and practised some excellent techniques for clearing emotional baggage and conditioning. The results of that are exceptional. Within 3 years, I owned four house, including a beautiful home that is perfect for me. I let the other three houses to students, giving me enough income to spend most of my time doing what I want to. I’m writing a book, get to play in the matrix (see Matrix Energetics ) with people who pay me and sometimes get miraculous results, and do a lot of dancing. I recovered from chronic insomnia and other health problems including multiple allergies and now eat what I like and enjoy excellent health, fitness, energy and a great deal of happiness.

Illusive intimacy

I sometimes get private emails from people sharing their woes followed by their email signature strap line offering ‘your perfect life’! I prefer to share that one thing remains illusive for me - intimate partners. While holding everything together against ever increasing odds, I had learnt to relate or come over to people in a rather neutral or even masculine way, so I have re-discovered my femininity. I’ve also cleared my emotional baggage, limiting beliefs etc. and had 1:1 sessions with many different practitioners and teachers to clear any other blocks.

Some of these people can read my energy and they confirm that I am open to relationship. One person also told me that my energy was ideal (for two months) for attracting potential partners. When she had this energy, even though she wasn’t interested in long term relationships, she received two proposals. I attracted zero interest. If it was this hard for everyone, the human race would die out.

Expanding possibilities

When things do not work as we expect them to, they offer us the opportunity to deepen our understanding and skills.

Single again

Many of us are finding ourselves ’single again’ and, despite all the dating websites, agencies and other resources, working on ourselves and applying the law of attraction, many, especially those with ‘history’, continue to be alone. My sense is that we need to let go of our beliefs and directly perceive and resolve what is happening for each individual at a far deeper level than is currently being taught and practised. For me, this means getting the broken parts of me back together again (who would be intimate with someone who is broken?). For you, it may mean something else entirely. And for others, the biggest challenge may be money, weight, health or something else entirely.

What really works

This is my ongoing exploration - how to (further) expand possibilities for myself, my clients and our world in ways that take us, individually and collectively, further. This blog is one of the ways I share this. If you’d like to stay posted on my progress as well as what I learn, subscribe to this blog (enter email in box on top left of page and click on ‘Subscribe’).